Thursday, April 26, 2007

I need a big sign that says: I don't know what I'm doing yet next year...

I think that myself along with numerous other college seniors feel this way. Everyone wants to know: WHAT ARE YOUR FUTURE PLANS? Well I don't have any yet! And guess what? I'm not worried. Who decided that if we didn't graduate with a job we were doomed? We don't need to map out our future starting May 22nd (day after graduation). I don't know what I want to do, but I do know this:

- I want to take some time off to relax. As if I do so much with my life now? I'm talking stress free pool time. No final papers, no gross east fifth street house that i am sick of living in, no drama.
- I loathe the thought of sitting in a cubicle. This might be delaying my job hunt.
- I want to do something creative where I can write.
- I know that whatever job I take isn't set in stone, and I can follow more than one path.
- Whatever I do choose, I have to be really passionate about or I won't put a lot of effort into it. That's just me.

So come time for my joint graduation party with my cousin Brian who goes to University of Vermont I think maybe I'll make us both signs that say: I'm not sure what I'm doing yet, but I'm sure I'll figure it out along the way.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Karo

I wrote in my first blog how I emailed writer Aaron Karo when deciding to do my column in the beginning of the year. Well coincidentally he ended up coming to Lehigh 4/19 during Greek Week for a performance! I had to miss it unfortunately because I was home in New York for a few days, but my friends attended and filled me in. Dissapointed to hear, they were unimpressed. Yes they laughed at his jokes and felt like they could relate to his "ruminations," but all in all when they ended up speaking to him they didn't think too highly.

For one thing, he is a name dropper. Yes, we all do it, but something about him finding out my friend was from Roslyn and dropping names to her, really turned her off. I don't mind that, it's always fun to realize what a small world it is and realize you know people in common, but this friend happens to HATE name-droppers. She also said he was arrogant and thoughts very highly of himself. I guess that's what happens to some people when you get a lot of fans and experience success. I was dissapointed to hear that they got such a bad impression from him though! That being said I still think his stuff is pretty funny.

This brings me to the idea of meeting people you admire or meeting celebrities. Sometimes it exceeds your expectations and sometimes you end up feeling let down. I guess that's why it is good to just let entertainment be entertainment and not a part of your reality. I've met a bunch of random famous people throughout my life and had both good experiences and bad. Of course there are some people I would never turn down a chance to meet though!

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Spoke too soon!!!

Right after I finished blogging for the night about my feedback, I signed off and got a facebook message. My first direct hate message about my articles.

"Damn your articles suck so much and are so worthless. Please make sure you graduate on time so the Brown and White can suck, at least a little bit less? Anyway, it's funny when people don't take their socks off. In fact, it's hilarious.

-much appreciated"

I wrote back even though my friends said not to. Like I said, people are going to like or dislike stuff, at least I'm elliciting a reaction. Can't say it didn't sting for a second when i saw it, but I can't waste my time caring about people who don't have anything better to do than facebook me that they don't like my writing. I mean how bored can you be?

Feedback

My friend text messaged me today that he was in Subway and overheard people talking about my column. He said that they were commenting on how "scandalous" it was. When I mentioned this to my friends at dinner, another one commented that she heard people talking about it in class.

My minor is Public Relations and one thing I always hear is "there's no such thing as bad publicity." Of course I get paranoid about what people might be saying about my writing, but I am trying to just keep telling myself that I should just be happy that people are reading it. I never want to write anything boring. I want to ellicit a reaction. Make people think and talk.

Should I do it?

Back in September 2006, I applied to be on the staff of The Brown and White, Lehigh's newspaper, for one last semester for my journalism major. One of my editor friends told me that they were thinking about adding and sex and relationships column and asked if I would be interested. "Sure," I said, "why not?" My friends and I sit around talking candidly about this stuff all the time, not to mentioned that one of my favorite shows ever is "Sex and the City." Carrie, the main character is a sex columnist and I pretty much idolize her, as silly as it is. My friends and I watch the show and listen to the questions they ponder and the situations they go through and we just crack up and are marveled at how relatable it all seems.

So I said yes. The only condition was that they wanted to do it under a pseudonym. They came up with the name "Allie Amore." This way, if it was controversial, I wouldn't have to take any of the heat directly. I'm slowly learning how to take constructive criticism, or simply any criticism at all. I wrote the first two columns and when the third one came around, I was told that the higher-ups on the paper said I would have to reveal myself because The Brown and White didn't support anonymity. I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue, scared of what people might think or say. As random and awkward as this was, I emailed a popular blogger turned author, Aaron Karo, about my situation asking for his advice. I'm not sure what prompted me to do this, probably one of my random insomniac thoughts, but much to my surprise, he responded! He gave great advice and told me that in order to be a writer, one has to take risks and part of that is building their name. So I did it.

Yes, I realize it's just a column for a college newspaper, but to me it is a stepping stone. A way of learning about my generation and culture, as well as myself and what I am capable of. I decided to continue the column through second semester when one of my friends became the editor and asked if I would. So far, I've had one come out about every month. Whenever they are published, I email the link to my family and close friends from home. It was an awkward but hilarious moment, having one of my best friend's mothers quote one of the lines from my article back to me.

Some people think what I write is provocative, I think it's reality. If people don't want to realize that this is what our romantic culture is coming to than they should read what I have to say. I'm a liberal person who is very open and honest and I enjoy writing what I write.